~MIDWINTER~

22 Dec is a special occasion for chinese..
It's midwinter..
Juz as usual lik every year i did..
Wake up to make da main foodstuff of da day..
"Tang Yuan".. Da simplest cooking way..


Twist up glutinous rice flour wif water..


Hand bleeding??? Haha.. XD


Changing some white one into pink..

WORK STARTS..

Going to wrap some of these brown sugar into little dumplings..


2 plates comparing.. Which one nicer??


Bro is helping actualy.. He's doing da pink one.. XD


Some r mixing colour.. Dun dare to make many..
Scare later mommy get angry.. Hehe.. ^^


Boiling tiny dumplings into da sweet water..


Tang Yuan SERVED!!

Hope everything will be fine next year..
Seems tis year wasn't much rounded as wat i hope..
Unluckiness.. Bad incident.. Lotz more..
Juz throw away from me, k??

~HOME COOKING~

Guess wat i cooked today??
It's home cooked chicken rice.. Hehe^^
Yummy.. Share some pics here..

Rice.. Wif pandan n a spoon of planta..


3 main materials..

Sliced ginger n chopped garlic..

Sliced mushroom..

Chicken in pieces..


Firstly.. Fried da mushroom wif sauces til brownish colour.. ^^


Next cooked da chicken wif garlic n ginger..


Lastly.. Mixed da chicken wif those fried mushroom..

CHICKEN RICE DONE!! Very easy, rite??



I GONNA EAT DA 3rd BOWL SOON.. Blek.. =P

~22nd BIRTHDAY~

More than 2 months..
I din scrabble sth on my blog..
Sori for da late updates..
I knew.. If i din start to write sth now..
My blog wil remain da same 4ever.. Hehe..

Juz wana share some pics over here..
My 22nd birthday.. 10th November 09..
Had a great celebration wif frends..
Surprises coming one by one.. N u all got me..

12a.m. 10th November 09:
Hands being drawn lik "graffiti"..

My face was so chubby..
N both my hands were so muscular..

2p.m. 10th November 09:
Lunch together..

1st surprise: Black beans lotus soup..
Delivered by: Mr. Kuek..


2nd surprise: Steam eggs wif love shallot on top of it..
Delivered by: Peixian n Minghui..


3rd surprise: Pandan layer cake..
Delivered by: Babes..


4th surprise: Cheese cake.. (Wif my silly face..)
I was preapring to blow.. But haven't make my wishes yet..
Delivered by: Sisters..


5th surprise: Little chocolate cake..
Delivered by: Roomie.. Muakz..


Here comes da gurls..


N da boys..


Everyone is here.. Only pic taken by me.. Hehe..


Kiss me babe.. Haha.. Silly me..

More surprises coming up..
11a.m. 15th November 09:
Family came up to Pahang for me.. Hehe..

Nice curry mee from Raub..


Mommy's Soya chicken drumstick.. Yummy.. XD


Lastly.. Tis wouldn't miss up everytime..
Mommy's Chicken Herbal Soup.. JENG!!

p/s:
I'm stil waiting for sth.. Wondering where is it now?
Someone said.. "What really matters is da feelings.."
Well.. Doesn't matter where is it now..
But.. Really matters is da feelings..
Did i really do??

~DA ROTTEN ONE~

Once it choose to b da rotten one..
It's alwayz da rotten one..
At da starting.. Mayb juz a small crack..
But.. As time passed..
While bad cell start spreading..
Da whole one gonna condemn soon..

Da rotten is alwayz da rotten one..
No matter how well it protect da surface..
Either it's green o red..
Da inner side is alwayz brown..
N it's stink.. YUCK!!

Sometimes.. When it's in hand..
At first.. Wondering it's nice n juicy..
But when u cut it off into pieces..
Found out.. Da inmost is juz da real features of it..



No one wil tel.. N it won't tell u as well..
Once u taste it.. U'll discover da real part of it..
I'm glad to know da truth without regrets..

~LOVE AFFAIR~

Today went out wif dear..
She told me.. "It's time to hav a love affair"..
By asking: "Won't u feel lonely when u need someone bside u??"
Indeed.. I hope to start one..
But.. There's no choice for me..
I mean rite now.. ^^

Frends thinking i'm choosy o wat..
But.. Actualy..
Telling da truth.. I'm not..
When a guy come closer..
For me.. I choose to take time n observe..
(*Not a long period..)
N yet.. Everytime..
It juz disappear half way round..

There's different story in between..
Some r sweet from da starting..
But.. Turning tasteless after a meanwhile..
Some r pretending all along da process..
N indirectly changing into a bothersome problem..
Some r sweet all along da process..
But.. When i'm preparing for it..
It juz vanished suddenly..
By interchanging.. I'm stil single rite now.. Haha^^



Telling da truth..
For da age of mine now..
Start worry-ing.. Why huh??
Is tis a normal symptom??
Scare later no ppl wan.. Bcome "lougupo"..
But there's one thing i alwayz regret..
Was da longest "observation" i ever made..
Til now v're 2 strangers in tis world all over again..
NO MORE TURNING POINT FOR US AGAIN..
NOT EVEN FREINDS.. IS DA WAY HE CHOOSE TO BE..

~2nd PRACTICAL~

I'm back.. Sori for da late updates..
I was too busy wif my practical..
N now it's over.. I'm a freeman now.. Yuhoo^^

A little talk bout my practical..
Well.. 2 months juz passed quickly..
N yet.. I learned lotz during tis practical..
Comparing to da previous one..
Indeed.. My mentor guide n assist me every time..
I lik da learning process.. Da way she guide me..
To let me noe which is da better way..
N wat is da weaknesses i need to correct..
Learning from mistakes is wat i alwayz hope for..

But.. I'm realy unsatisfied wif..
My minor subject.. Mathematics..
During da last observation by HLM..
I'm totally down..
I knew she won't satisfied wif it as well as myself..
After finishing da last maths class..
I keep reflecting myself.. Why i'm so stupid??
Brain was stucking all da time without any new ideas..
At tat moment.. I almost burst myself wif tears..
But i did control it by entering my cuties' class.. Year 1..

Talking bout Year 1 class..
Sometimes.. They made me scratched my scalp..
Sometimes.. They made me laughed a lotz..
Haha^^ There's stories wif them..
I realy love u all.. But.. I'm leaving..
力宁，芷炜，恩琪.. Dun cry anymore ya..
While u all r crying after da last lesson..
My eyes were wet.. If i cry.. Sure very paisei..
Cz parents were all around.. Hehe^^


GONNA MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!! ALL DA BEST.. MUAKZ..
Oh ya.. Thanks for da presents.. ^^

~INCREASING O DECREASING~

Get shocked while u told me tat sentence..
U think i can?? Am i worth to b??
For me.. I'm not able to reach there..
Dun put expectation on me..
Da higher u hope..
Da higher disappointment wil b coming..
Trust me.. I'm not tat good..

Sometimes.. Wat u feel..
Wasn't da same in reality..
Mayb wat u saw during these period..
Is juz ur exterior perspective..
There's lotz of happenings & incidents..
U dun really c it through ur eyes..
Once u saw da real one..
1st mind.. 1st thought wil change u thoroughly..

But well.. U're realy different..
U taught me a lotz..
Encouragement.. Opinions.. Ideas..
N trying to lead myself to da ideas u gav..
Appreciate every words & notions u gav to me..
N it's precious.. At whiles..
A dull stone may turn into a beautiful gem..



N yet.. When time turnaround..
Da same doing wil change into a habit..
Whether good or bad..
Everyone hav a different answer..
As self-esteem keep sliding down..
Habit wil slightly turn into a negative one..
N well.. I'm one of it rite now..
Please drag me out from tat hell place..

*Keep on da same habit wil turn me into a demon..*

~RECUR TO THE PRIME~

Recur to da prime.. Am i??
Incertitude bout tis..
Frankly.. Hopefully i'm not..
By hoping i'm at da right position rite now..
Controlling & avoiding it slightly slanted to another side..
As an ancient weighing scale alwayz do..
Keeping at da proper locality to tc da rite figure..

But i can't insure.. Mine was well-balanced now..
Sometimes.. While v're lacking out of sth..
V'll try to search for da piece which v missed..
In fact.. Bout searching for da rite piece at da rite place..
Is considering another thing..
Wat v called "LUCK"..



But sometimes.. Though there's some pieces..
Being abandoned.. Or isolated aside..
V'll pick them up n ponder upon them..
Which is da piece i'm finding actualy??
Is tis? Mayb..
Tis? Mayb not..
Or tis? Perhaps..
Keep wondering.. N mind is wandering actualy..

As time passed.. Pieces start changing their form..
Mayb they're not alike as da 1st time u saw them..
As well.. It's not da piece u needed anymore..
By having da one last piece in hand..
Wil u stil wonder n wander bout it??
Try to figure it out.. But dun regret by picking it up..
Moreover.. Da process is da true meaning..
Pick n mold it to da perfect shape which v hope for..

~OVER~

"It's OVER.." "Everything is OVER.."
Holidays was OVER!!
Time to transform bc to study-mode..
Admitting.. I'm stil in a holiday-mode..
N gosh.. Gonna start practical next week..
Not in a mood yet actualy..
Tis time wil b 2 months.. Not a short period..

Passed few weeks.. Went around..
Enjoying of course.. Vacation.. Gathering.. Meet-up..
Otherwise.. Indulged in front of my lappie..
Playing FB.. Lotz more.. Updates wif new topics indeed..
Chit-chatting wif frends..
Withal.. Watching drama til midnite..
Day til noon.. Noon til nite.. Da same action keep repeating..
Juz a relax mode for me..
Throwing everything aside without thinking any of it..
Although is kinda meaningless..
But.. I juz wan some RELAXATION..

First event.. Secondary class gathering..
Juz able to gather 12 of us..
Everyone is walking on different pathways now..
By da way.. Juz hope tat things run smoothly..
No matter who r after graduation.. working or studying..
All da best to u all.. Continue fighting!! GooD LucK~
Hav to consider a suitable venue next time..
Hope tat tis wil not happen again.. Dreaming.. Sori for it^^
N thx zkun for da pics.. Hehe^^ Oh ya.. Stil rmb.. End of tat nite.. My heartbeat ran quite fastly..
Is lik gonna drop out of sth..

2nd event.. Meet-up wif sban jimui..
Ya.. Same venue though.. Greenbox..
I knew is dear ying's favourite..
Suggest it out.. Not bad huh?
But is a smaller room..
But though.. Tis day was realy nice..
Zyun was bc n having her internship at KL now..
N munmun brought her bf along.. Bcome our photographer..
Zyun.. Mun.. Ying.. N me.. Best-best & leng-leng frend since primary til now.. YING~
Dear.. Miss u so much.. Muakz..

K well.. Da last thing to share was P.Perhentian trip..
Went wif coursemates tis time..
LCCT to Kota Bahru..
Snorkeling is da BEST!! LOVE IT SO MUCH..
Especially looking at da corals n fishy under da deep blue sea.. COOL!!
Turtle.. Baby-sharks.. Feeding fishes.. AWESOME!!
Swimming n following da sea creatures til certain depth..
END OF STORY.. It's been a great trip actualy..
N v jumped for end of tis trip~
Hapi moment is transitory lik watching da sunseting..
Hapi schooling day, everyone!!
Bye-bye, my holidays!!

~A "SUDDEN"~

A sudden appear.. A sudden vanish..
All of a "SUDDEN"..
Wil juz influence a person's feelings lotz..

A sudden appear of ideality..
Cause a person to b hapi of it..
Paying expectations on it..
By hoping a nice come-off..
When it vanished..
Prospect wil juz vanished as well..
Lik da mist fading away when da sun rise..
N feelings wil keep sliding n decreasing..
To a lower level..
Mayb da lowest.. Who knows??

Contrastingly..
When an aversion sudden appear..
Causing someone in fear n trembling..
A thousands even millions n billions of uncomfortable..
Hoping it to wind up as soon as possible..
Da same thing continue wil lead to an unceasing tension..
By da way.. Juz leave it away..
Til da forgone time.. It'll disappear in a suitable way..



Rotating to another angle of mind..
Are these inconsistency in mind??
Sometimes..
When things were around..
No matter it's bon or bad..
Juz feel tat things r not tat good..
As well as myself..

Every mind concept was lik..
Unable to settle n resolve stuff nicely..
N timorous to tc da 1st step out of da doorway..
A main factor was.. CONFIDENCE..
N stil there's lotz of room to b improved..
Aspiring after a better life..
Dun wana loose any chance to grip it on hand anymore..

~ZERO~

Finally.. Lastly.. Eventually.. Ultimately..
Everything ends on Tuesday..
Anxiety was being released out..
N there's no more vexation in my mind..
But juz fatigue n weariness..

Call to mind.. These passing dayz..
Hav to force myself on everything..
In fact.. I knew i'm not tat good comparing to others..
But.. Juz telling myself.. To try anything which i'm able to b..
As long as i'm trying out.. Putting efforts..
I won't hav any regrets on it..

As well as an affair..
Which dragging me for a long time..
Can't even forget til tis moment..
I knew it's time to let it down..
Not worthy anymore..
Keep maintainnig da same thing..
Wil juz bothering & burdening myself..
Til da end.. Nth wil b in my hand..

Juz let it b & clear things out in mind..
Let things bc to a starting mode again..
Though tis is not da 1st time for me..
Everytime.. I can forget in good ways..
Tis time wil b da same.. I knew..



Sometimes.. I'm not sure whether..
Is it my problem o da trust of mine to ppl around..
Inccident happened once n once again..
But everytime i din grasp it nicely..
All r juz CARK!!
N ya.. CARK juz change everything to zero again..
Til da now of mine is ZERO.. Lolz.. Kaka^^
Hapi holidays.. To let my mind bc to ZERO..